It wasn’t a good night for me at all . I just couldn’t sleep; it was so quiet, too silent for me. I sat there for awhile, thinking I would just doze back off. But it didn’t happen for me. I decided to wake my sister and found. A purse and pillow instead….She had snuck out and left me with the monsters under my bed.
Today wasn’t a normal day because I woke up feeling alone. I knew today felt different but ,today had a undertone. As I began on my adventure.I felt a sense of fear. I stood stuck in fear in thee in between. Where they can’t see me. Why ,because they can’t seep in. The fear I can feel it. Thee unknowing it keeps me here. It’s knows me by name . I look around ,but I can’t see it anywhere. How can you fear something that’s not there. Something you can’t see , but it feels so scary … caught in a senseless day dream
DON’T LET FEAR TRAP YOU
I Remember as a kid loving basketball. I would sit in front of the television watching the Bulls. I knew a lot about basketball and all it took to win. I used to love watching with friends and family. We would eat, scream, and cheer, all for the love of the game. The Bulls would win and the city would celebrate in their own way. On our street people would ride in their cars screaming they won. Playing music and hanging out….Me my way of celebrating was different since I was a kid. I would cut up small pieces of paper , in their colors of course and scream with joy. While throwing my confetti paper I made. All for the love of basketball. I miss it so at times so I peek from a distance….
I seen you just the other day .
you didn’t give me your name .
You tried to shield your heart .
But life played a tuff game,
and keeps breaking your heart.
Tears began to fall
,and so did your pride.
Overflowing from your eyes.
Tears rained from you ,
while I fought to keep mine inside .
What you said touched my soul .
you said ,”I’m giving up man,
I just want go .
let it all go ,they won ,I quit ,
no one cares , I won’t be missed”.
That this is it …
You apologized so many times and cried I’m sorry.
I Listened to your words.
I hear you ,I sat right by your side .
I said , don’t give up on you, on life, don’t let them win.
Do not let the beautifulness of life escape you.
You matter ,you are not invisible I see you .
I see you with my eyes ..
I hope and pray you don’t fade away
and I see you on different day
you beautiful stranger.
While riding up the street one day. Written in red across the gate. It said, “It keeps coming back.” My initial thought was who or what keeps coming back. Well that’s weird and creepy. The child in me said, like Pennywise. I knew at that moment I was creeped out. I Know it was just a movie, and IT isn’t real right? But, I couldn’t help but to laugh and wonder. I got so use to it being there on the gate ,that I barely looked to see if it was there. Till one day I peeked, and it was gone where did it go. Will it ever come back ,I don’t think that it would…..and if it keeps coming back why is it taking so long to return.
I save my tears for at home.
I save my tears for when I’m alone.
I save my tears for the bathroom stalls.
Sometimes I can’t save my tears ,they just fall.
I met Susie on the first floor of my apartment building. Susie was sweet, funny and a lot more. Susie was what I would call a ultra borrower. The things she borrowed didn’t come from a store. They came from my house as she search frig and sat on my couch. Susie ask for cheese and lettuce all sorts of things. Her kids even came to borrow things to. Yeah, Susie borrowed meals and some of my time. She also knew how to love and have a good time , I think she need a friend and so did I. I think about Susie from time to time . I wonder where Susie is now.